Feeling 170411

I found that a better way to express feeling is through blog. coz ppl may curi tgk ur diary when u r not in.but, web is hard. at least that ppl manage to hack in to ur account. the hard way is u hav to find free time,free place, free pc, which when we needed but free from everything. recently, i found i'm not so believe him. seems that hje has many things keep away from me. for an example, he never mentioned to me before he worked in ces before. until yesterday nite i get to know from my ex-colleague, which also my friend. he very hate ces. but, he worked with ces. hairan. last time when he saw ces brouchure, he straight away renyuk dan buang. wat a shocked when i know he worked with ces. the 2nd thing, y he delete his call out list from 4/4 to 6/4??? this due to i found the call out list for his biao mei not there. but, on 05/04 around 10pm, he called his biao mei to ask bout the email. he make a phone called in front of me when he is driving. y he purposely do so??? there was a gap for the call out list.... in addition, he keep on said our new house soon will get the key and need to pay how much..new shop going to settle and need to pay how much...is that all real????? i never go to his shop before, he also never show me his shop...all is he told me nia... and, he told me his biao mei will email me is hav any problem or news. but, she will use company email address. he taught i'm stupid. any one also can create an email account n tipu lar.as long as u hav the password, u can login and reply and read the email lar.somemore tell me wat the email account name. cheh.... i better protect myself.his ear very tajam.his eyes very tajam.he also banyak tangan. i think he may be already viewed most of my documents when i'm taking my bath or doing housework.takutnyer.